In the big picture, I have come to understand that life is really a series of opportunities for each of us to do what is right. Sometimes how to do the right thing is more clear than others and many times the consequences are great.
A short time ago one of those opportunities presented itself to us. At first I was afraid; afraid of what I might find, what pain it would cause; would I be opening old wounds that I told myself had been healed? All I really wanted was the truth and to get a glimpse into my Daddy's heart, something that was taken from us many years ago. I was willing to take the chance and face my fears. In the process, I have found that I was not the only one who was seeking the truth and hoping to do the right thing.
I have also found, that the truth sometimes has to be eaten one bite at a time, some bites are more tasteful than others. For me personally, this hunger for the truth has been growing for more than 30 years. Perhaps the most suprising part of this experience has been the resistance that we have faced finding the truth and getting to know each other.
This has also presented the opportunity for you all to do the right thing, but instead of helping to heal the wounds of the past, you have chosen to continue to divide. For all of his faults, I know that daddy loved all of his children. I know that he would take comfort in knowing that we have reached this point in our lives. Nevermind the circumstances, we are his legacy, and all that we have to offer is ourselves and the willingness to do the right thing.
It seems to me that not just over the past few weeks, but for the last 30 years the opportunity to do what is right has been there. This family or group of families have suffered through this tragedy; blame has been cast, emotions have been supresseed and feelings have been neglected. Now finally a chance has come to make peace with it all and to make something positive. I'm not sure why you all have felt so threatened by the truth coming to light, but I intend to move forward and not stew in the lies of the past. You can chose the same or you can certainly continue on the same path with your next generation. I know that it was Mom's decision to put distance between us when we were young and I until now I didnt understand. I can only speak for myself and Robyn but we have chosen to seperate ourselves from the "Source" of the deception. We are hopeful to pick up the pieces and rebuild our family and make our Dad proud that we have found our way to each other through God's Grace and timing. We are family.
